When I mail Wei Qing, its like I am mailing myself. Her problems are just so similar to mine. I feel like Im reflecting on my actions, that im defining all my thoughts. Putting them down in words is perhaps good for me. Its like a finality for me. To me, telling someone something important that I've decided after a struggle is important. Its like telling someone so I cant go back on my words. And the act of putting everything down in words and sending it off to someone I trust..it reminds me of my determination to remember it and not waver. To put down all that logic, that control of my emotions, so that I wont go back to just acting senselessly based on what im feeling. Or get upset.
Important things.
Whats important now is to stop troubling the seniors over something that I should be solving. Something our batch as zui da should be solving. I didnt want to trouble them. Even with my problem I was just going to tell them, ask them for a bit of advice, then settle it myself. I guess we arent a good and strong enough batch to take over without worrying the seniors. Not now at least.
I want to tell the seniors:
Trust me. I will solve things. Its just important for me to say stuff. To tell people stuff. Because I hate going back on my word. I hate saying stuff I cannot fulfill.
