I feel like I have been given an impossible task, that I really can't make it. I know wang isn't happy, stressed. And I know he isn't going to talk to me. Maybe he would talk to Amanda, but not me. I think im not made to lead. I have always thought so. I don't know how I got to be assistant monitress in 2/6, and I don't think I did a good job. I don't know how I got to be captain, and Im not doing a good job now. I want Jiaqi back, and I don't want Amanda and Sianglin to go. I just feel lousy. I can't believe that I still cannot train, and I can't believe..

that I can't do a good job of being captain. The seniors are gone, and I don't want to trouble them. I just have to find a way. I think I will talk to wang tomorrow. If he doesn't say anything, I know I tried.

I feel like I have been given an impossible task, that I really can't make it. I know wang isn't happy, stressed. And I know he isn't going to talk to me. Maybe he would talk to Amanda, but not me. I think im not made to lead. I have always thought so. I don't know how I got to be assistant monitress in 2/6, and I don't think I did a good job. I don't know how I got to be captain, and Im not doing a good job now. I want Jiaqi back, and I don't want Amanda and Sianglin to go. I just feel lousy. I can't believe that I still cannot train, and I can't believe..

that I can't do a good job of being captain. The seniors are gone, and I don't want to trouble them. I just have to find a way. I think I will talk to wang tomorrow. If he doesn't say anything, I know I tried.